ladymaxstarr

10:33 am: What the FUCK?!? Can you stir the chicken?

12:48 am: Well I have not posted in some time and in that time i have had a bit happen, not all of it memorable but two things really stand out in my mind. The first is learning that my boyfriend is moving up to Portland, OR sometime around the end of the month and I am not able to join him up there due to restraints on the both of us.

The second is that about two weeks ago my father decided to throw me out of the house over some stupid petty argument. I dont think he really ment it, but I have grown tired of all the threats of being thrown out and called his bluff on it. I was supposed to go pick up the rest of my things on this sunday {Fathers day} But he has decided that it wont work out for him, when he had agreed to the day and time in the first place. So now I have to wait yet another week to get the rest of my things and I cant even pick anything up with out him being there. Pissing me off, But what ever. I just dont want to have to get police involved.

but that is all that has been happening to me. And i have a nice new place to live, closer to alot of my friends and all that. So is it nice to be out of the stressful environment that i had been living in.

And AX is just around the corner and I will be getting to see my best friend for like 6 days maybe more.

03:10 am: Its been a while
So I know it has been a while since I have said anything on here and I think I am going to start using this a little more to up date things for me if not for people. So I am sitting here at 3 in the morning working on a sewing project that I need to finish in two days. I dont have much of it done but here is to hoping that I can stay awake and get it done before wednesday night.  Why wednesday? Well that is when I plan on wearing it if I can finish it in time. So wish me luck. I will try and post pictures when I have it finished.

02:05 am: WOW
WOW  life for me has just been crazy and I know it has been another 2 years since i have typed anything on this thing.  Well life has been good to me for the most part just crazy busy.


But I am happy to announce i am now an aunt. My little sister had a baby boy on Feb 15 of this year. He is a cute darling little thing and i love helping her out with him.

That is about all else i have to say so i will try and post things more often i think or i hope....yeah

well ktnxbai

03:48 pm: OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
YEAH its been like 2 years since i have looked at this thing....... scary

10:05 pm: ummmmm
here check out this fun Online Role Play site

01:55 am: eeeeekk
ok ok i know i havnt posted in a while but i hav been sooo busy. what with anime expo, looking for a new job and my b/f. i just havnt had time. but i will try to make time.


thats all

ja ne

10:45 pm: OMG i feel sooo bad
i havnt updated is so long i just thought i would update

well i hav been dating ths really great guy for 2 months now and i really love him

my anime club is doing great not much longer til expo

i cant wait for the HP3 movie to come out

well thats all i will try to update more often

Ja Ne

peace, love, and dounuts

06:50 pm: new quiz

You are a true nature girl!


Which Ultimate Beautiful Woman are You?
brought to you by Quizilla

12:12 pm: my shadow

You are a human shadow. If a loved one needs you,
you are always right at his or her heels! Your
deep social connection with human beings
produces your qualities of genuine caring and
charisma. However, at times you are naive to
the true nature of your loved ones. Remember
that humans' gift of free will does not always
lead them in wise directions. But your essence
of love and friendship represent the other
precious gifts of humanity. Overall you are a
strikingly valuable and innocent being who has
a lot to give.(please rate my quiz cuz it took
me for freaking ever to create)


What Kind of Shadow Are You? (with gorgeous pics)
brought to you by Quizilla

03:07 pm: i am in such a good mood
yes i am in the best mood ever. i am seeing this really great guy that i love very much. he is so sweet and funny and lovable. i love him sooooooo much. hehehe i could just go on forever about him. hehehe. well i guess i could tell you all his name. his name is john. so thats why im in a good mood.

ne way tiffy if you read this im sooo sorry for ditching you. but im not single nemore and im very happy. and i hav been very busy with getting stuff together for anime expo this year.


well thats all for today.

memonkeyporkcoffeemcmoots

JA NE

11:10 pm: i hate the world
i really hate the world amd all the stupid people in it. why cant everyone just live in the now and not in the past/ and why do people have to get angry at other people. i cant stand it when i have to hurt people and cause pain. why must i be the bearer of bad news. i just wish the everyone could get along. but even then the world will suck.


AAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


well i feel a little better now.

01:08 am: hehe another quiz

You are a Khaos angel. You are different from all
the rest. You are a special breed of angel,
prone to suffer in the world that you are in
now. No matter how much you try to believe that
your not special, you are. There is alot that
you want to do in this world. Khaos angels are
very dramatic, we tend to have the ability to
cheer people up no matter what the mood, and
hold in your emotions. You should be proud,
Khaos angels are very rare to find in this
world of ours... (and yes. you are a completely
different type. Hence the name
"Khaos" and not Chaos. quite strange
huh?)


What Different Kind of Angel are you...? ( Anime-ish pics )
brought to you by Quizilla

12:49 am: what is you heart made of???
well my heart is made of gold


Heart of Gold


What is Your Heart REALLY Made of?
brought to you by Quizilla


what is your heart made of???

01:55 pm: the weekend
this weekend was greaat. i started todevelop my char for wayne's rp. she is a healer

it is going to be interesting.

well i dont know what else to say

so i will update again later

JA NE

11:11 am: oh ya
oh ay tiffy i didnt forget about you. i will give you a call some time next week ot hang out ok. i still love you.

JA NE

11:05 am: hehehe
well i know it has been a while since i hav updated. but a lot has been going on in my life that i just havnt had the time. well valentines day was great i had soo much fun and didnt mind being single. at lot has happened in the past week that i dont remember it all. well i am soo excited for ax this year. it will be my first time going and i am already apart of 4 group cosplays, its great. i am soo looking forward to the sailor senshi5 of hogworts cosplay that will be fun.

well thats all for now. i hav to go and get ready for work. i will be back probably sunday with more random stuff

JA NE

02:56 am: HMMMMMM
hmmm this weekend was great. i went to an happy heartless day party. anti valentines day for those who dont get it. well it was so much fun. but on a side note. i think someone else might hav a crush on me. hes also in the aco3.

well i shot down justin online after the rp on firday night. i think he gets it. i hope he gets it. im just not interseted in him the way he would like. i mean he a great guy but not really my type.

but ne way i love hanging out iwth all my friends in the aco3. they are a great group of people.

i cant wait for thursday. im going to disneyland with becky and jj. its going to be great. jj is making me a slytherin scarf and becky is making walking robes for us to wear. it will be great.

well thats all i will be back with more when i hav more to say.

JA NE

05:28 am: Friday the 13th
wow what a day. went to work. then i went to the friday night rpg. that was a nightmare. i guess justin got the wrong idea. i want nothing more then to be friends with him. there are a few other guys i like and woul dlike to get to know better. but ne way the night wasnt a total loss. i got to read more in my friends jj's anite blake/ranma 1/2 cross. its great so far.

but thats about all. going to an anti-valentines day party tomorrow. i cant wait.

ja ne

11:26 pm: poetry time
i just want to share some poetry i wrote a while ago:

Alone

I stand alone,
out on the meadow.
I stand alone,
all by myself.

No one is there with me.
Yet, i feel someone watching me.
Someone out on the meadow,
standing out there with me.

I see an angel standing before me,
Reaching out to me with open arms.
I start running across the meadow,
Running to thier open arms.

Then they're gone.
I am alone again.
Alone out on the meadow,
All by myself.

written on 5-13-1999




Questions

Why must the world go round?
Why must people love?
Whe must there be a hole in my heeat?

How do I fill this hole?
How do I know I can love again?
How do I understand what is going on?

What must I do?
What can I say?
What is there for me?

I don't know what to say to you.
I don't know how to fill this hole.
I don't understand what you want from me.

Can you help me?
Can you fill this hole?
Can you help me to undersatnd?

written on 5-13-1999




Hello

Hello?
Can anybody hear me?
I just need some help?
Hello?

No one is answering my pleas.
I just want to find love.
I feel alone,
Like there is no one for me.

Hello?
I just want to find love?
Can you help me?
PLEASE?

written on 6-9-1999




The Lone Road

Walking down a cold dark road
Alone and shivering from the cold
When one sees a pair of lights
Coming towards you in the night
You see a car coming fast
You stand there hoping it will pass
It stops near you adn the driver gets out
He walks over and you start to shout
"Help me, oh help me. Someone please"
A figure steps out from behind the trees
"Do not worry, Don't be scared."
"They are here to help, they really care"
The figure states from beneath its hood
And disappears back into the woods
The stranger says "Don't be afraid. It's all right."
"Let's get you out of this cold of night"
So he takes you into his arms
And you start to feel really warm
You think "Who is this kind man?"
As you walk to his car hand in hand
"I think i have found my soulmate"
"For you i don't think i could hate"
"Let me take you away from here"
"And keep you safe and without fear"
So into his car you climb
As i near the end of my rhyme
With love in your heart
And now you both depart
Down that cold dark road
But no longer shivering and alone

written on 10-10-2000


well thats all the poetry for now when i write more it will be posted here.

oh yeah i really like you to justin. ::big huggles::

JA NE